what am i? educated, fun loving, brown, & women loving. above all those things i am a flirt & a tease, so why i have not been so? i think i have been caught up with my own personal desire to be taken seriously but all that has done is made me look like a beeeetch.. a real mean one, so let me scratch that idea of being taken seriously but im not serious. and if i dont take myself seriously then why should other people take me seriously? i feel like i have been suppressing myself because of some ideology that i have to be a “man”, mr suave. after hanging out with my gay friends i have rediscovered a piece of me that i love, the fun loving, happy go lucky, tease that makes up a good amount of who i am. im tired of having to restrain myself because of my own personal ideology that i have to be someone else. that side of me can come out later because why must i have to test people with my bitchiness?? why must i give them a hard time?? fuck that & fuck me for doing that. let me end that chapter.
