when im mad.. i clean. it makes me feel empowered that i can do something so labor intensive, more like time sensitive, because it makes me feel good. i know that everyone can do the laundry but taking the time out to do it is another topic. having the time for myself to clean my clothes soaked with my problems is very empowering. sometimes when i cannot do anything but just suffer, it makes me feel good to clean that grimy feeling away with detergent. then having to sort out my clothes, after my socks, is almost therapeutic. it is like when i sort my clean socks, i am the only person to know how gross it used to smell, separated from its pair. after everything is clean and folded, it feels like i washed myself of that grimy feeling. somewhat of a clean slate to be creative and inspired again.
